Right Wave

“Empty mind is said to be devil's workshop"

Mostly, it seems that at this moment- Life has caught me on the wrong foot .May be my mind is empty and is incapable of thinking anything, all I could imagine is leaving behind everything and running away to a very distant land, which offers me new shades of life, new opportunities and new advances.

This is no new feeling, its common with everyone.

Everyone tells me and I feel it too, there is a conscience which seems to be trapped. But I wish to know, where and how it is trapped? I am also starting to believe that I am a bit more confused than normal being when it comes to knowing what I want from life. Success or Happiness. Family Values or Personal Agenda. Pro-active or Reactive. Social or loner.

At one instance I feel that I know the answer and at another it all seems to be useless shit.

                    I am greedy,I want everything in life. And I consider it as a Virtue, Life expects everything. Another confusion!! What would you expect of me when I say that I am good at analyzing things & people and this virtue in itself is turning into a disease, I wish I could stop but this analyzing keeps on filling my mind with all the weird thoughts, it fails to stop and then I have to channel it but recently it has gone crazy.

 After reading, ‘Seven Habits of Effective People’ i am trying to jot it down on a sheet of paper as to what I want with life, then the first thing would be I don’t want an average life as most of the human beings live, I even don’t want the life of a wealthy brat but what I want is a purpose to live, a role to play so that I may pioneer the change I wish to see in this world. I am not insane to think that I may change things around me but I feel helpless, powerless when it comes to fight for things I truly want and I let go of them believing that it’s not the time. Till you don’t have any Power and Authority, fighting for your values might trouble you.  One day, they would return and by then I would be ready to take my stand.

Yes, it is very optimistic of me to believe and to wait for that right moment. May be, everyone is waiting for their right moment. Entire world is waiting for that Right Wave.